I am so tention right now I have so many things aroud my head This time I came to BKK My feeling is so bad I am not really happy, I do not know why Or maybe I know exactlly what is going on but I just can't face the truth that what is happening now... I am forcing myself to act like I am happy... it's opposite the true... I do not want to spend my hold life like this.. This is not the REAL ME!!! where is my real me??? I want it back to my own life.. every step that i am taking now It's FAKE!!! People like me to act like this, isn't it? But I can't take it anymore... I want people like me to be me, not to be the girl that they want me to be... I really want to go back my home Only home that I can be the real me!!! People their are understand who am I I am so confused right now, what am I gonna do now? Am I sure to taking this along with me? The answer is I am really do not understand what I am doing I just do not know what should I do right now I want to spend my life by m own, not for anyone... The person that always said to me that he really understand me everything but at last he doesn't know anything about me at all!!! Am I wrong that I think that? I feel guilty, moody, blue and not myself... I will try so hard to turn back to be myself.. PS. Home Sweet Home ( I really believe this poem.) PS. I am not the girl that you want and I can't be....